Monday, December 7, 2009

=)


You know, I'm feeling good today. So good. Right now. At least I've understood something important. =)

Guess I can get a deep deep sleep tonight. Sweet dreams guys. Muacks. =D

Friday, November 20, 2009

currently.


. . . I've been feeling a lot like this.

Question.


If a colleague is in danger of driving me to insanity could it be termed self defence if I repeatedly stapled him or her in the head?

wag. mong. ipressure. ang. iyong. sarili.


NATURAL sa tao ang magtampo. At kapag nagtatampo ay nakapagbibitaw ng mabigat na salita—o banta. Ang mahirap, kapag nakapagbitaw na ng ganitong salita, ang pressure ay nasa iyong sarili na.
Gawin nating halimbawa ang isang kilala kong personalidad. Features editor siya ng isang babasahing pambabae na napakasikat. Global brand ang nasabing women’s magazine kaya naman nang ilabas dito sa Pilipinas ay natangay ng kasikatan nito ang sinasabi kong personalidad kaya naging kilala na rin ang pangalan niya sa publishing industry at maging sa entertainment world. Karamihan kasi sa mga cover niya ay mga celebrity na sikat.
Minsan ay nagkaroon sila ng argumento ng kanyang editor-in-chief at ng publisher dahil menor de edad ang celebrity na napisil niyang gawing cover story at interbyuhin para sa isang particular issue. Ang nasabing celebrity ay unti-unti nang nagkakapangalan noon sa showbiz at pinalalabas na hindi na menor. Pero aware ang EIC at ang publisher sa totoong edad ng celebrity.
Matigas sa kanyang paninindigan ang features editor na magamit na cover story ang menor de edad. Aniya ay kaya niyang lusutan iyon, at kung magkaroon man ng isyu o eskandalo, mas mapag-uusapan ang magasin at siguradong papatok lalo ang benta.
Ngunit mas takot ang publisher sa posibleng maging indulto, lalo na kung matawag ang pansin ng Department of Social Welfare and Development. Ang ginawa ng EIC at ng publsiher, kahit nasa imprenta na ang deadline ng magasin ay ipinabago pa rin sa ibang staff ang cover at inalis sa feature sa loob ang menor de edad.
Na-offend ang features editor at nasaktan ang ego. Agad siyang nag-resign at nagbanta: Maglalabas umano siya ng panibagong women’s magazine at pababagsakin niya ang dating magasin na pinaglilingkuran.
Dahil kilala na nga siya sa industriya ay madali siyang nakakuha ng financier para sa plano niyang bagong women’s magazine. Nakakuha siya ng staff at nabuo ang kumpanya. Sa unang tingin ay nasa pagsasakatuparan siya para sa banta na pababagsakin ang dating employer. Ngunit makalipas ang tatlong issue ay nagsara rin agad ang magasin dahil nainip ang financier sa return of investment, at nalakihan masyado sa overhead.
Bigo ang features editor sa kanyang banta. At dahil alam niyang nakarating sa dating employer ang nangyari sa kanyang project—lalo lang nasugatan ang kanyang ego.
Kamakailan ay nakuha uli siyang features editor sa isa pang lifestyle magazine kasi nga ay ito ang kanyang expertise. Ang masaklap, mukhang bago matapos ang 2009 ay magsasara na rin ang nasabing title. Gusto kong isipin kung ano ang pakiramdam niya ngayon. Ilang taon na ang nakararaan, ang kanyang banta sa dating employer ay nananatili pa ring walang katuparan.
Ito ang sinasabi ko—huwag nating lagyan ng pressure ang sarili natin kung tayo man ang nasa ganitong sitwasyon.
Marami na akong napanggalingang kumpanya. Ang ilan ay tinanggal din ako sa samutsaring kadahilanan. Sumasama ang loob ko pero hindi ako nagbabanta.
Ang pilosopiya ko, aalis ako na wala silang maririnig sa akin. Ngayon, kung may magandang mangyari sa akin sa aking panibagong tour of duty, sampal sa kanila iyon. Pero hinding-hindi ako nagbibitaw ng salitang gaya nang may ibabagsak ako, o may pagsisisihan sila sa pagtatanggal sa akin. Mahirap na.
Isa pa, ugaling bata naman iyon. Para bang dahil hindi ka naisali sa laro ay sasabihan mo ang ibang bata na, “Sige, bibili ako ng kendi hindi ko kayo bibigyan!”
Kung may kakayahan tayo, alam natin iyon sa ating sarili. Masibak man tayo sa trabaho kahit hindi natin kasalanan o dahil ipinaglaban lang natin ang ating karapatan, humayo tayo na walang galit sa dibdib. Magsimula tayo ng panibago na walang pabigat sa kalooban. Walang pressure. Ang oportunidad ay mas naghihintay sa mga nagpapakababa.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Oprah wrote this about men...Interesting……. And thought of posting it here in my blog.


If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't 'be friends'.
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think 'it will get better.'
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behaviour. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...
You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

You Can't costume Stupid.


Stupid Girl Next to Me: "I was going to go as a sexy Marie Antoinette, but the costume is out of stock - don't they know that they are ruining my life."

Now if she had said that she was going as a decapitated Marie Antoinette, that would have been cool. The way I'm imagining it, the neck of the costume would be at the crown of the head, the famous breasts would be at about the eyes, and she could carry a bloodied head in her hand!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

i heart.

i love waking up in a cold morning with the soft ray of sun touching my face.

i love coffee.
i love listening to house music.
i love cigarettes.
i love walking nowhere.
i love drinkin sessions.
i love smellin my armpit.
i love making faces.
i love reading blogs.
i love Britney.
i love Oreo.
i love watchin indie films.
i love out of towns.
i love sleep overs.
i love doin the laundry.
i love to dace.
i love to sing.
i love beaches.
i love TIGGAH and POOH.
i love Krispy Kreme.
i love writing poems which im doin right now.
i love to see naked people wihihihi.
i love flirtin which i am good at.
i love puttin up a good conversation.
i love listening to rNb.
i love twitter.
i love to fall in love but dont know how to.
i love ridin on big bikes.
i love to peep.
i love to sleep.
i love my job. . . NOT!!!!! hahahah
i love myself. . .
i love bichin!



XoXo
iVAN

to whom it may concern. . .

RE-BLOG. . .hahaha


OMG!! I am in a middle of dismay.. I thought things like these only happen in telenovelas, reality bites,,hehehe,, so here is the scoop...

I have this really closest bestest friend whom I share sentiments and joys since high school. We are really happy when we are together.. doing stuffs that usual best friends do.I really am hands down to him,.,, he has this great congenial personality, and really flirtatious, which i think is really funny of him.. he taught me how to recognized in the limelight as an elite persona, eventhough I am already in the spotlight, modesty aside.

Recently, my beau and I broke up. I shared my sebtiments to my bestfriend. He then told me to forget my past relationship and move on,, but I have to admit that it is not easy. I still have hopes that it can still be repaired. But my bestfriend gets angry at me when I tell this to him saying that I am weak.

Now this is what pisses me of,.. In just a span of fifteen days, I saw them together in a bar,, both of them.. my past love and my bestfriend... i can see pictures of them together. and that a reliable friend told me that they are really together. damn,, how do you spell delikadesa??? hehehe.]

Now i figured out why???

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

tiggahtigz and groovahpooh

i heart tiggah and pooh




I won't waste time waiting for nothing, when efforts are NOT recognized. It's best to just GIVE things UP, I've done my part. let them do theirs.

finished b.s. nurinsg, with specialization in alak and yosi, lolz Mary Chiles College.

i've waited more than a year to (finally) have a job. swerte nga, sa contact center industry agad ang bagsak!!! hehe. i wasn't even expecting na papasa ako sa interview. i came to the job fair wearing casual attire (aplicants must wear business or formal attire kasi). ayon, fill-up ng form, interview, and the rest was history.

by 16th of December, fly na ako sa manila, to start na sa business centr sa Greenhills. tuluy-tuloy na yun, and after nun, nag front line na ako. enjoy at horrible at the same time. lalo na pag irate ang customer. most memorable call ko? i think ung one of the last calls ko before i resign. super nagalit si customer.
"What happened to you, you were f***ed-up? dapat nung sinabi ni customer na f*** you, you should have said 'sure, do it!"
kaya hanggang ngayon dito pa rin ako sa Sun Cellular. Hanggang sa matransfer na nga ako dito sa Tarlac. . kabwisit ko nga eh. .
Sabi ko sa pinsan ko na Area Head for Central 1, itransfer lang nya ako sa NOrth Edsa, eh lumagpas naman na ata. fokentch! wala na ako nagawa. . .
haaayy. . .marami pang mangyayari sa akin dito sa kumpanynag to. .

update ko na lng kayo. .

Now a scammer... certified, that is, although I dont want to be one. Have I got other choices? LOL

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

college.


way back in college, ako yung pinakamaingay sa barkada, makwento, makulit at masayahin. ako palagi ang promotor ng mga out of towns, gimiks, yosi break sa gitna ng klase, inuman sa bahay ng tropa. too bd, i never get to document or needless to say "blog" it. ang blog ko lang nun utak ko. . .heheheh
ang sarap magreminisce, ang sarap isipin ang nakaraan. ang sarap ulit ulitin. ulit pah! hhahah


ngayon. . .hindi na yata mauulit ang mga iyon. ang tropa may sarisarili nang buhay. bihira na magkitakita, text text an lang or minsan wala na talga communication. iba kong tropa may mga anak at asawa na. yung iba bisibisihan sa work. yung iba "bum" lang. i really missed my friends. they used to be my shield when someone is trying or has hurt me. they are my strength, more of like a brother and sister. bilib ako sa tropa ko nung college. trully bonded talaga kami. kapag may problema ang isa, nandyan ang lahat para makirmay. . xempre kasunod nun saya. . inuman. . .tawanan. kulitan. . pikunan. .


there's only one thing i am wishinh for right now. . another great, quality and freakin good time with mah homies. . .and i am waiting for it. . .

XoXo
iVAN aka biatchy

twitter.

im so addicted to twitter right now. . .talk about social networking. . hehehe

Monday, October 26, 2009

tapos na ang monday.

malapit na cut off. . uwian nanaman. kanina pa nauubos laway ko at sobrang sakit na ng likod ko. whew! i dont knoe how long pa i am goin to take all tiz shit! it's killin me.

but for now, im just enjoying what the company is giving me. MONEY! lapit na sweldo! alak nanaman! hahahah tatadyak ako ng pulang horse. . maraming maraming pulng horse! hahaha

Sunday, October 25, 2009

lettertomyex



i have really strong issues when it comes to my EX's. . there are the ones na okay lang ang break up, meron naman yung tipong niloko ka na at ginago ka pa. shheeeettt talaga! the last time that i got my heart broken was last week. . pero ayos lang, aalis din naman na siya eh pupunta na DAW siay sa Italy (char!) s'all good. . natikman ko naman na siya eh. . hahaha pero yung di ko malilimutan eh yung ex ko na naknakan ng sinungaling at ang kapal, nakipag break pa eh boyt day. pakyu ka! sana di na bumukas yang butas mo sa pwet! hahahah (im so evil! and i like it! harhar)
dati hindi mabilis ang pagmu-move on ko. . .nanjan yung almost a year eh di pa rin ako nakapag move on. deyum! inuman gabi-gabi, ubusin ang isang rim ng yosi sa isang linggo. buti na nga lang at hindi ko naiisipan na mag commit ng suicide, syang naman xe ang lifesung ko kung madededo lang ako. . tamang inarte lang talaga ako.
Pero ngayon, medyo mabilisan na lang ang pagmumove on. tumatatak na kasi sa isipan ko yung motto namin ng bestfriend kong si karen: "TIKIM TIKIM LANG". . .WAHAHAH
ngayon, di na muna ako padalos dalos sa mga nakikilala ko. . .hayaan ko na lang muna na init ng katawan ang umiral at hindi ang puso. (tama ba tong pinagsasabi ko?!)
welp. . .here are some random thought you would've or could've said to yer EX:

i didin't realize how tall you were coz i'm used to seein you on ya knees. . .lol

remember how I told U tha job gave me ova tyme...I was put'n N ova tyme on ma NEXT...LmFaOoo!!!

Some day you will find yourself and then wish you hadnt, Just like I wish Id never found you.

Thanks for making me realize that I can do SOO much BETTER than you! You have to compliment me! =)

u sucked my dick real good !

seriously? You? Puke!

I asked myself every day why. I realize now I will never understand the whys.

ummmm can u hop off at least so I can adjust my sack please???? Thank you......Sheesh

FEEL LIKE A FOOL NOW DONT U..LMAO

"If u gone be chicc, then b my chicc, dnt talk no shyt, who u wit? o u wit him? then pack yo shyt...."

remember the time i "ACCEDENTALY" bust one in ur face and it went in ur eye.... I was aiming for ur mouth but u moved

u had a farting problem <-this is the funniest one

. . . currently listening to "Take A Bow" by Rihanna. . haaayyy. . .lecheng pag-ibig toh. . .

umaga na.

lunes nanaman. nandito nanaman ako sa trabaho, makikiharap nanaman sa mga cliente namin. meron dyan mga mag iinquire, magtatanong lang ng kung anu ano, magpapalamig lang at makikiupo, meron din jan na kunwari magtatanong pero wala naman pala means. at ang nakakainis. . .ung mga tao na hindi marunong magbasa. . .nakita na nga na sa "The Sun Shop" (Sun Cellular) kami, magtatanong or mag aask pa sila ng tungkol sa GLobe at Smart. . mga fokenetch sila. . ewan ko ba, halos araw araw ganito na lang lagi ang eksena sa aming shop. kulang na lang murahin ko sila (pero hindi puede).


kung puede lang sana! minsan lang!


. . . .update you later. . open na shop eh. . .lolz

take care guys. . .hug hug. . .enjoy yer monday mornin. .

Saturday, October 24, 2009

so much for hate, anger and animosity, let's start anew. . .
i hope i could get myself happy and jolly again. . .

somebody. . help!!!

Friday, October 23, 2009

WE SELL,, WE DO,, SICK! IM SICK? I DINT KNOW TILL IT ATE ME UP! SOMEONE FUCKIN HEAR ME! WHAT GOOD IS THE MONEY FOR ME! I FEED THEN I KILL,, I KILL YOU WHO FEEDS ME! WANNA GET AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE! IM SICK! CAN I KILL?! BITCH! KILL ME! ARE YOU MINE? JUST MINE? MY SLUT? SOME MORE ALCOHOL! THEN GIVE ME A BLOW JOB! THEN A PIECE OF YOUR LOVE! IM SICK I KNOW IM SICK! I HATE MYSELF? NO!!! I HATE THE SICKNESS THAT EATS MY UP! TOMORROW THE SKY OPENS!OPENS UP! HEY MOM DO U KNOW UR SONS SICK? I GUESS NOT! ALL THE SLUTS! GET AWAY! GET AWAY ALL YOU FAGS! GET AWAY PLS! I MITE JUST KILL YOU! THEN HAVE ANOTHER GLASS OF CREAM ALCOHOL,,

\ tWo mOnths aNd st!LL cOunt!nG /

Parting is such sweet sorrow. So true. Its like
having a major hangover after the intoxication
wears off from last nights party. You feel
nauseous, dehydrated, wasted, and dry. Mush
suddenly loses meaning. Sweet-nothings translate
into one wordcrap. And like crap, you simply
flush it down the drain. You are left with nothing but
disillusionment. The world aint that great after all.
Everything becomes gray.


I have done everything to cope with my lossfrom
watching cars to bathing alone, from downing
alcohol to gazing at an overcast sky, from wishing
to hoping, from rambling to writing At the end of
the day, all I have is mush, and no one to share it
with.
A line from a popular song says, You bleed just to
know youre alive I feel so alive right now. It
must have been death when I was with my
paramour for I didnt know pain. To see the world
through the eyes of the jaded was the biggest
illusion of all. To love and to be loved for a while
was the sweetest thing, even for a cynic.

my first...


this is me. my blog. my everything.